Oh Maria Maria
She reminds me of a west side story
Growing up in Spanish Harlem
She’s living the life just like a movie star

Oh Maria Maria
She fell in love in East L.A.
To the sounds of the guitar,
Played by Carlos Santana

I like this song. It grew on me.

I’m at a payphone
Trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of shit
One more fuckin’ love song I’ll be sick 

I love Train! Ever since those days as a girl listening to Drops of Jupiter.

And this song is stuck in my head. And I don’t mind.

Oh I swear to you
I’ll be there for you
This is not a drive by
Just a shy guy looking for a two ply
Hefty bag to hold my love

When you move me everything is groovy
They don’t like it sue
Mmmm the way you do me
Oh I swear to you
I’ll be there for you
This is not a drive by

“[She’s] not interested in putting out some ‘please love me’ vibe.”

Hmm. Interesting. 

You know where you belong when you feel at home on set along with other fellow actors and filmmakers.

There is no doubt about your identity or why you’re there. You just are. Together doing the best you can to create something you’re all passionate about.

No make up

Just some jean shorts

And a big old blue shirt

Cruising down the freeway with no plan in particular

I love having weekend nights off

I just realized.

I’m young. I’m alive. Not everything is apparent and I don’t know everything, but at this moment I’m thankful and happy for what I have in this life.

If there were sprinkles right at this moment I’d run through em.

While At Rehearsal

No it’s not easy being true to yourself. There’s so much pressure to just do what you think everybody expects you to do.

It’s hard enough knowing what’s your own truth. Knowing who you really are. Knowing what you want.

But, it doesn’t mean you give up trying. It doesn’t mean you cave into everyone else’s realities. You stay true and defend your own. Because if you don’t who will?

I believe it is an art - delegating the balance between being true to yourself and being respectful of others.

I wonder. Do I really need to learn to respect myself more? Have I gotten so good at what I do that I can fool people into thinking that I do? No I do. But maybe I’m not good at forgiving among other complicated things. I guess there’s a difference between being comfortable in your own skin and really believing in yourself.

While At Rehearsal

Sometimes it’s hard to be true to the reality around you. Sometimes you have to find the truth within yourself.

The art of completely accepting a specific reality true and relevant to you.

It’s hard to believe sometimes what people put on you. And expect from you.

World’s becoming more cutthroat, selfish, get out of my face.

Sigh.

STOP TELLING YOUR FRIENDS ABOUT TUMBLR!

And get off so I can Tumble in peace.

All those nights walking into theaters together, arms wrapped around each other. Keeping warm together in the cold spaces, holding hands. Now every time I see a movie, I get this weird feeling. Like he should be with me, and next to me. I look to my side hoping to see his face, maybe looking back at me, or maybe his profile. And walking out, appreciating it together. Sharing our thoughts. Sharing the worlds of our own imaginations. 

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.
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Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Get that shit away from me.

       It’s soup, it’s good for your uterus.

       Take it or I’m going to keep singing.

*GULP*

You made me a period mix?